Ordinary of Newgate Prison:
Ordinary's Accounts: Biographies of Executed Convicts

15th September 1760

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20th August 1760


gentleman told me, he believes and thinks he can demonstrate him to be mad; not only from his own observation, but from concurrent evidence of gentlemen of the faculty, and others. Yet thinks him not a safe member of society as neither could he vouch for himself; for when that very question was put to him by Mr. C - d, Whether if his life were spared, he thought he should be guilty of the like again? he answered, God only knows that, whether he should or no!

When Mr. C - d first entered, Mr. Stirn stood motionless for some time, looking exceedingly wild and ghastly; and at last said, Come, Sir, behave like a man, what is past is irrevocable. - I have nothing now left but to make my peace with God, who has justly brought me hither. - I lament my rashness. - I am terribly wrecked, when I reflect upon the scene I have acted! -The thought of launching Mr. M - s, into eternity, in the midst of passion, and without a moment's preparation, fills my soul with horror!

I am thankful to the Almighty, for having delivered me from the like calamity. - I am now convinced, he cares for his creatures, and particularly directs the actions of them. - I now feel his grace is alone sufficient to keep us from falling. - I forgive all my enemies, whether real or imaginary. - Oh! Sir! Sir! I know not whether I have not committed as great a sin in abusing your goodness towards me, and in wickedly suspecting my father, my benefactor, and my friend, (for you have been all these to me) of every thing that was bad. - Here he burst into an agony, and presently fell to the ground weeping and sighing exceedingly. - After he was raised up, he repeated several times to Mr. C - d, Will you forgive me? Can you forgive me? On being answered in the affirmative, he replied, Then I die in peace; pray with me! Oh! pray with a wretched sinner. After we had prayed, being greatly affected with sorrow for the cause of his grief, and joyful at the extraordinary appearance of repentance discovered in him, Mr. C - d took his leave, intreating him, for God's fake to eat his victuals; to which he replied, he could not, but would drink some coffee, or a glass of wine.

The next day Mr. C - d visited him again; and when he persisted to assert the lawfulness of his dispatching himself, when he was assured he must otherwise suffer death by others, was answered, Though there was no reason to doubt it, yet you can never be so assured trill the rope is about your neck. - On mentioning the rope, he immediately started; and with great fury replied, "You are not, you cannot be my friend. - What, would you persuade me to the gallows; no, no, I don't go to the gallows like a calf, as you brutally carry, poor criminals; and then burst into, a fit of laughter. Mr. C - d then told him, that if he was placed in his unhappy situation, he would patiently submit to any death, even to be dragged by a horse's tail, and would, with his latest breath, pronounce the justice of his punishment.-

"Oh! (said Stirn) Sir, your conscience and mine are very different." - "Pray Sir (said he) how came you to tell me, in the fields, that you discovered I had some bad design?" He was answered by his having a very remarkable and frightful countenance. - "Why, (said Stirn) that was the mark impressed upon the countenance of Cain:- and how came you, who are a long-headed man, not to know it, and prevent my intention?" - Upon Stirn's asking this extraordinary question, he was desired to recollect, that he had never intimated his intention to fight, much less to murder Mr. M - s: - True, true, (said he) I was falling into my old error of suspicion," and immediately desired "never more to speak of the gallows, for that it should never happen."

The next Sunday evening, he was accompanied to chapel by Mr. C - d and Mr. C - n, where he behaved with decency and devotion for some part of the time, till the sermon was to begin, and then went out of the chapel, and stood behind the rails for awhile, but afterwards returned to his feat, His discourse in his chamber with the same gentlemen, after service seemed to flow from a disordered mind, repeating his unreasonable suspicions of some of his best friends.




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