Ordinary of Newgate Prison:
Ordinary's Accounts: Biographies of Executed Convicts

15th September 1760

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20th August 1760


disordered and agitated in his mind, viewed him with horror and compassion, and said to him, after condoling with him in his sad situation - How could you do so horrid a deed? - At once take another's life and attempt your own? - Do not you know that every man is the image of his Maker: - How dare you to deface that image without his authority? - He stood silent; but on urging the same questions again, - he answered, with settled anguish in his face, - "Passion is ever an enemy to reason.?

On this occasion he entered into the rise and progress of the quarrel with Mr. M - s and himself, nearly as it afterwards appeared on his trial - Owned he had challenged him to fight, and, because he would not meet him, took this revenge. - He now acknowledged he could not bear the thoughts of the punishment to be inflicted for 1t; intimating, that he therefore attempted his own life.

He was therefore earnestly beseeched to recollect and return to those good and rational principles which he must have received in a christian and learned education, - intreated not to give himself up to despair and its effects! But remember, bad as his lot is at present, it may become worse, to a degree now inconceivable to us and therefore to think of the means of redeeming the past transgressions, with his future better thoughts, and behaviour. - When I recommended prayer and reading to him, he asked for Sherlock upon death, which I had not, but lent him a bible and prayer book, and pointed out proper places to him. - He desired also to have Young's Night Thoughts lent him.

Next morning I had some farther discourse with him, wherein he said, he was educated in calvinism, but willingly conformed to our church; but explained some opinions which he held not only contrary to our doctrine, but to the express words of scripture, to which I referred, and repeated to him.

He owned, that he firmly believed the resurrection of the body, and a future state of rewards and punishments; but yet I found he was warped by some Socinian tenets.- I perceived, however; his strongest error of mind, was his pride, vainglory, and idolizing his honour; to remove which, earnest prayer was recommended to him, and the words of Our blessed Saviour, St. Matthew the 18th. chap, and 3d. ver. - "Verily I say unto you, except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven," were pointed out to him. As also his divine example, and the patience of Job, and other good men of all ages, in suffering, whether deservedly or not, was let before him; especially that pious resolution of Job, 14th chap. 14th ver. "All the days of my appointed time will I wait, till my change come," - in hopes to cure him of the very thoughts of suicide.

Yet so strong was his conviction of his crime, or rather his despair and pride combined, that he seemed determined to put an end to his own life by one means or other; if not by his own hand, yet by a firm resolution of starving himself to death; and he endeavoured to justify this, because as he had forfeited his life, to the law of both God and man, and that it was not lawful even for the government to pardon him; he argued with all the sophistry that his learning and pride could suggest, that he might inflict death on himself by any means in his power. - When urged with proofs the shew that his life was not in his own power, that as he did not, could not give it to himself, so, neither had he a right to take it away. - He still answered, would you persuade me to the gallows? No! but I persuade you to patience and submission, to that divine and human power you have offended, as the only means of pardon and peace: What is time with all its changes and chances, of shame and suffering, when compared to eternity? &c.

During the service of the day, I explained and applied, 2 Kings, chap. ix. and I Peter ii. to him; shewing, that Ahab's family, and Jezebel, both suffered for murder, according to God's express decree and prediction. And that it is our indispensible duty as Christians, to follow the example of Christ in suffering patiently, even for well doing, much more for evil doing.

Wednesday, August. 20th , he was visited for the first time by Mr. C - d, who was utterly melted into a flood of tears at the fight of him,, observing him loaded with fetters, and so greatly altered and emaciated by falling. - This




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